Walk Through Fire

Walk Through Fire (Chaos #4) by Kristen Ashley

4.25 Chipotle stars

“Never give up. Never quit dreaming. Because dreams had a way of being. You just had to keep hold.”

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So so thrilled I was gifted with an arc. Ever since I read the blurb about this couple in the last book I have been dying to read their story, and Kristen Ashley does not disappoint.

On a regular day Millie decides to get a meal from Chipotle. While there she sees her ex Logan “High” in line ahead of her, precedes to freak out, run away and falls apart. Twenty years ago Millie and Logan had been in love, before she sent him away citing the Chaos motorcycle gang as the reason breaking both of their hearts.

For the last twenty years Millie hasn’t been living, she’s been going through the motions and merely existing. Millie’s real reason for sending Logan away is one that has haunted her the entire time, and now Millie decides she wants to tell this to Logan. Crashing a biker party, things do not go the way Millie intended, and she and Logan end up having explosive hate sex. But Logan has held onto his anger all these years for what Millie had ruined between them, and he wants nothing to do with her. At least, that’s what his head says. His body says otherwise.

“Nothing wrong with dreaming. But you got it right. Best way to dream is to do it, then earn it, no matter how that happens.”

Now we all know Kristen Ashley, what I just described above is only the tip of the iceberg of the story told here in this book. But because I don’t want to give away any SPOILERS (evil) I will not be saying anymore plot wise. I will say from this point on, the two go through some seriously hot hate fucking and Kristen Ashley decides to play tug of war with our heart strings. Simply brilliant, my favorite part of the book.

I did have a few moments like this:

—> especially when I found out how long it had been since Millie had had sex. Too long in my opinion, but you’ll have to read the book to find out and come to your own conclusions.

After the halfway point new issues and hurdles are tossed the couple’s way leaving them to navigate new territory for both of the MCs. This is also where the book gets a bit sweeter and mushier which I also like. But the second half of the book also turned into a stepping stone for the next book/conclusion of the series? and with that lost a bit of the charm that I loved in the beginning. To be honest I don’t give a hoot about the big bad they’ve been building up to and I tend to skim those parts.

I loved the cameos of the cats in the book. It’s obvious they were inspired by Ashley’s real life kitten duo (she’s got pictures on Facebook, look it up) and it made me even like cats for a little bit. But I don’t like cats I’m a dog person so let’s move on.

Millie and Logan are what I would call a timeless Kristen Ashley couple. Logan is a dominant man but not as much as KA hero’s in the past. He’s a man who lets things go when he needs to and it made him an amazing partner and father to his girls. Now while Logan is 44 and a little bit too old for me, I wouldn’t kick him out of bed.

And Millie was someone who suffered silently for years, I loved watching her come alive again when the love of her life came back to her. She’s one of those kind hearted people that would be irreplaceable if she was in your life. She’s devoted, loving and selfless and not one bit annoying (at least to me).

Also, I think this book is a great example of the power of Chipotle. One trip to that restaurant and it changed the course of a couple’s lives forever. So I say we all treat ourselves and get aburrito bowl from Chipotle. I’ll be sitting there getting fat and waiting for my dream biker man to come in.

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Here are some of my favorite quotes from the book:

“Never, Millie, don’t you ever hide or feel ashamed of the emotion you have for me, for us, for what we lost, for all we got back. Don’t ever do that. All a’ this is gonna be pain right along with pleasure. That is, until we work through the pain and got nothin’ but the good left over. And I swear to you, fuckin swear I’ll get us there.”

“We didn’t walk through fire only to get to the end of that and not get our reward. If we can walk through fire, baby, we can do anything.”

“Everyone’s got an endless capacity for love. Which means everyone’s got the shot at receiving an endless supply of love. Don’t matter who you give it to or get it from. Just matters you got a heart big enough to give it and a heart open enough to get it back.”

“I’d do it again for another moment like this. And again for a moment like I had over French toast with you and your babies. And again and again and again, for each night I get to sleep with you. No joke. No lie. I’d do it every day it was so worth it to walk through fire for you.”

ARC kindly provided by the publisher via Netgalley


One Love

One Love (Gypsy Brothers #7) by Lili St. Germain

***Note: This is a review for the ENTIRE Gypsy Brothers series, minor spoilers ahead for those who have not read them yet and I will not be tagging them. So don’t read this review if you don’t want to be spoiled.***

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Wow, this series was quite the journey. There were moments like this:

And then moments like this:

But overall, this was me while reading all of the books:

When Julz was fifteen years old, she was betrayed by a man she thought was family and his sons. They raped her and almost killed her, and she only escaped with the help of a young cop who faked her death. Six years later, Julz decides it’s time for revenge, and heads out of the country for plastic surgery to look like a new girl.

She heads back to the Gypsy Sons compound where she auditions with the man who ruined her life, Dornan. Very quickly Dornan becomes obsessed with Julz, who he knows as Sammi, and Julz finds herself in too deep. Julz also faces another problem, Dornan’s younger son Jase, her childhood love is also in the compound, and his presence ignites old feelings once buried.

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I found this series to be thrilling, shocking and enthralling. There is nothing quite like a revenge tale, and I loved reading about Julz killing off a bunch of the men who raped her. She is such a strong and believable character, mostly because even though she constantly has doubts about what she’s doing, she follows through with getting it done. I would have liked a bit more backstory on her relationship with Eliott and Jase, a little more on the connection and history she shared with them would have made it easier to see why they fought so hard to help her and keep her alive, but St. Germain did a good job of making the reader believe the romance without a lot of backstory (or to clarify, as much as I would like).

Dornan was fucking crazy. Just when I thought he couldn’t get more demented, he brought out more of his inner psycho. Like stabbing a girl in the leg while giving her oral sex? Then all of the torture scenes in book 5? I seriously thought I was going to ralph when I read the parts about knives making sucking noises in chests. Ugh. But you know what? He made a fantastic villain was the guy you love to hate.

I don’t really have a strong opinion on Jase or Elliot, to me they were background for the plot, but I love that Julz got some version of a happy ending with one of them at the end of the journey.

Thank you to Lili St. Germain, you are the author that made me enjoy dark and twisted books. Until now I haven’t really cared for them, but now I’m willing to broaden my reading horizons.

Series rating a 4.28 stars after averaging the ratings from all 7 books

Seven Sons

Seven Sons (Gypsy Brothers #1) by Lili St. Germain

4 Jesus H. Roosevelt Christ stars!

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So, I’m not normally a big fan of dark romance. To be honest, I’m a giant chicken and it scares the shit out of me the majority of the time. But today I stood in line for twenty minutes to meet this author and listened to so many people gush about how amazing this series was. Having seen it floating around Goodreads peeps as well, I decided to give it a shot. And I am so glad I did! (PS: Sorry to Jasmine and Allison for cheating on the buddy read! Couldn’t help it this was awesome!)

At a very young ago, Julz endured a form of torture that would break most people, and it almost broke her beyond repair. Six years later she is looking for revenge, against the man who wronged her and all of his sons who helped in. Changing her appearance and her identity, she infiltrates the compound where they live. But pretty soon, Julz realizes she may be over her head, but it’s too late to turn back now.

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As I said before, dark is not my usual genre but I could not put this book down! I was hooked from the first page. For a 100+ page book, there was some great character development involved that is normally missing from shorter books. Many horrifying things occurred in this book so if you are easily offended this is not the book for you. I was surprised to find it didn’t bother me so much because I was reading along thinking to myself “Get your revenge Julz!!” like a total nerd.

The only thing I had a teeny tiny issue with was how quickly Dornan became obsessed with “Sammi”. It seemed to happen really quickly, but since he’s fuckin crazy it also makes sense.

I’m looking forward to reading the rest of this series and kind of want a redo on meeting Lili St. Germain so I can fangirl properly this time.

It Ain’t Me, Babe

It Ain’t Me, Babe (Hades Hangmen #1) by Tillie Cole

2.75-3 stars

“We were always fated to be together. He is my everything. He is my entire world…Styx is my salvation.”

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Welp, I am in the minority. Yet again. I wanted to love this one, I did. Like, I even love the premise still. Because cults versus motorcycle clubs? Hell yeah! The end result just wasn’t what I wanted. Too high of expectations I think.

Mae has lived with The Order her entire life carrying out their wishes. On the day she is to be married to the prophet, she flees, leaving her sisters behind. Mae finds a ride away from the hidden compound, but the driver pretty much dumps her, severely injured on the property of the local MC Hades Hangmen. The club Prez Styx, sees Mae bloodied up and dying behind a dumpster and immediately gets help. Once Mae wakes up, she and Styx realize they have met before….

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At this time, I really can’t do anything other than rant on the things I didn’t like, so I’m not really going to review this book. If you really want to talk to me about it, message me. Based on the fact that I gave it 3 stars, I did like the book, I just wasn’t overwhelmed with it’s amazingness. Again, I think it’s because I had higher expectations. The last 25-30% of the book redeemed itself for me, but the first 60-70% really pissed me off.

Will I read book 2? I think I’d like to give it a whirl.